Which planet can I blame?

If there were a thing as the Mental Games Olympics, and it had Overthinking as one of the sports, I would have kept my amateur status so that I would have been able to get the gold in this. Unfortunately I went pro a while ago, and there’s no such things as the Mental Games Olympics. All of this to say, I have been overthinking every single part of this website and blog and it has put me between a rock and a hard place.

I want to start, I have the first blog post written (which has been posted if you’re reading this, just FYI), but I don’t want to post it before I get some more stuff ready because what if it ends up being a ‘one and done’ kind of thing if I only have that one post?

So I should write another post, but what should it be about, I’m not an expert on anything. Of course I’m not an expert on anything that’s why I wanted to start this website in the first place, to allow myself to be a beginner and explore and write down my findings. That’s a great outlook, however, I want everything to be perfect.

How can I be perfect if I never start, you can be perfect without practice? But I want to be perfect without practice, just perfect right from the start. Well, that’s not very realistic. Well, tough.

And here we are, between the rock and a hard place.

It’s been a full year since I’ve started this website, and nothing has happened. Because perfect isn’t an option from the beginning, so then, it’s safer to just not start. Now, we could delve into my past, find some traumatic experience possibly tying back to my childhood and discover why this is so hardwired into my brain OR… could we perhaps, blame the stars? A segue way into a series of posts where I’m going to explore my own birth chart and see if I can actually figure out what it all means.

For my birthday last year I gifted myself a birth chart reading and if you have the opportunity to do so, I can highly recommend it because it hit home for me. Unfortunately for me, somewhere along the way I lost the full written out version of this reading and was left with what I could remember, which isn’t much. So I’m going into this with barely any knowledge other than some basic astrology that I have picked up on along the way.

Here’s what I know so far:

I was born on the 17^th of August at exactly 11.00am, in an (for sake of this blog) unnamed town somewhere in The Netherlands.

My big three is as follows: sun – Leo, moon – Cancer, rising – Libra.

There are houses, planets, and signs, and they all represent different aspects.

My Venus is also in Leo, for some reason that’s the only one I always seem to remember after my big three.

What I also know is that my birth chart is represented in this image:

As far was I can tell right now, the outer ring is filled with the signs, and inside that ring are the planet symbols and the 12 different houses. Over the next few weeks or months, I want to break this image down and learn as much as I can.

And maybe then I can figure out which planet I can blame.